who is? thes is.

i am picking a thesis topic. really, i am narrowing it down from a predetermined list of projects that i got from my advisor. considering that i like an element of serendipity, this is difficult.

all i want to do is sort through itunes and make hypothetical mixtapes. ahhh. takes me back to high school.

i’ve probably listened to ‘heartless’ by kanye west at least 15 times today.

played pool with bf’s former coworkers from [scienceland] this weekend. i had to step out briefly to submit some homework (haha, NERD!) but came back in time for a beer and some awesome beginner’s luck. apparently, i did learn some geometry, after all.

• 21:08 Top 3 weekly #lastfm artists: Kanye West – 6. On Point – 3. NPR – 2. bit.ly/3qOdqr #

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• 21:47 Top 3 weekly #lastfm artists: Kanye West – 4. Sattar – 4. Britney Spears – 3. bit.ly/3qOdqr #

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• 21:50 Top 3 weekly #lastfm artists: Googoosh – 13. Regina Spektor – 7. Britney Spears – 5. bit.ly/3qOdqr #

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positivity

forgiveness, in terms of letting go of the past is so freeing. and seems so easy in retrospect. but really, it is the newness that makes it seem fresh and wonderful. the hard part of letting go, in my opinion, is having the resolve to fix mistakes i have made while being sidetracked by who i was before and why i am still not that person.
responsibility is a bit harder. being a part of the world, figuring out what my role is, or perhaps just being that careful balance of assertive and considerate, while trying to do the things i want to do.
love is hard as well. it is something to work at and learn from and be hopeful about.
what do i have to contribute to the people i know and the society at large? it clearly isn’t something obvious to me, and i feel a bit embarrassed that i don’t know. perhaps it is to be a responsible individual, get my work done on time, speak up in class, maintain self-confidence, practice random acts of kindness.

i will try this until i learn otherwise.

i still miss my friends. i still worry about changing to the point where i don’t recognize myself or i fall out of touch with the people i care about.

but, to bring me back to reality, i have to work on a poster presentation right now.

also, going to boston this weekend.